NyStateOfMind

Monday morning started with oversleeping. Got up at 8.50am and jumped in the shower got dressed and was at the doctor’s office at 9.15. I was impressed with myself. It was a quick visit and we were back at home at 9.35. Enjoyed a yummy breakfast and some coffee while sitting in the window where the sun struck us like a hot summer day.

Laundry was on the schedule for the rest of the day and we spent hours running between the apartment and the basement. In between we came up with the brilliant idea of doing gymnastics (?) on the couch.

After work on Saturday I came home and crawled under the covers. Five minutes later Jenny called me saying she felt sick and couldn’t move. A few hours on the phone with each other and with health care information we decided to head for the Women’s clinic emergency room. Didn’t get back home until 3.30am but for the first time I was tired for a good reason.

Waiting for the test results

Sunday I was back at work all day. My cousin came shopping which was nice. Even better was when he offered me dinner after work, which I of course accepted. When my shift was over at 8pm I went straight to his house and was served a delicious home cooked meal and a summer drink.

Last day in school today! I can for the first time in 7 years say that I have a summer break. I still have one exam next Friday but I get to do it at home and therefore it feels like summer break started today. One year of school and I feel just like the guy in the picture. Where do I store the information for the following two and a half years?

This week flew by and I barely remember what I’ve done. A few girlfriends came over Wednesday night and we played Black Jack and some other complicated game in my kitchen until midnight.
As of now I’m tired and I think it’s time for a nap.

Babe I know it ain't easy when your soul cries out for higher ground
'Cos when you're halfway up, you're always halfway down
But baby this is serious
Are you thinking 'bout you or us

Don't say what you're about to say
Look back before you leave my life
Be sure before you close that door
Before you roll those dice
Baby think twice

Yesterday I wasn’t home all day, school in the morning then work all afternoon. Jenny picked me up when I got out of work at 8 and we headed straight to Pauline’s house for coffee and chocolate cake. Around 10pm we got to Jenny’s old house and started emptying out the last few things so it can go up on the market. Once we were done in the house we opened up a box of Black Tower, turned on YouTube and watched old music videos while singing along as loud as we could.

The night turned to morning and we went for a long walk with Tila while watching the sunrise.

On our way back home

We found a landing place for UFOs

Sunday afternoon the sky turned black and the rain was coming down hard. Sitting in Jenny´s window once the thunder and lightening started made the afternoon perfect. A few minutes after sitting inside nice and dry we had to drive to get the horse indoors. It didn´t take long but we were soaked from top to bottom. As soon as we got back inside we sat in the window once again just looking out.

Ended the night with Bingolotto just like we do every Sunday.

Last night Kim invited me over for a BBQ at his house. He shared some great news with me and I am so happy for him! Patrik and Jenny came over too and we had a delicious dinner which consisted of pork tenderloin and fries. Sat out on Kim’s patio all night, so nice! We were supposed to watch I am number four but instead Jenny came with the brilliant idea of playing cards and so we did.

Today I’ve been at work all day and on tonight’s agenda is a movie, a blanket and my comfy couch.

Picture from our walk a few weeks back

I have two days of internship left and I did one of them today. All the kids were happy to see me and of course I was just as happy to see them. It’s been a beautiful day and we spent most of the afternoon outside playing in the sun. Some of the girls made me a bracelet out of dandelion stalks that I had to walk around with half the day. I'll be there tomorrow too and that will be my last day with those kids. Next semester I'll have a new class and new students.

21 days and counting.

I’m living in a daze. I don’t know what day it is and time is passing so fast I really can’t keep up.
I haven’t been able to sleep before 3am in the past week. I've been sitting with my computer, tons of books, notes and Red Bull trying to write a paper for school.
My head feels heavy and my body is getting extremely exhausted.
Tonight I’m sending the paper out in cyberspace and hopefully after that I can crawl under my covers and fall in to a deep sleep.

Looking out my window and the rain is falling down. I love the sound of rain smacking on my windows and smelling the wet asphalt after it stops. Still, I dream myself away to a place far far away where the ocean is light blue and the sand is white.

If I only won more on Bingolotto yesterday I could have been on a private jet heading to a tropical island somewhere. Someplace where all your troubles disappear and all the stress you carry around just drains out from your body. I look out my window once again and get reminded that it is still raining, I’m not going anywhere today.

Thursday I was so tired it was painful to stand, sit and keep my eyes open. After school I met up with my old neighbor for lunch. Always fun to catch up with friends you don’t see very often and we had lots to talk about. When I started walking home from the city I could see my comfy couch in front of me and I was longing to get home and crawl under a blanket falling asleep to some bad TV. My plans changed when Jenny came over and sat in my kitchen drinking coffee until midnight.

Still tired we were way too lazy to walk down to the kiosk across the street. Instead we called a few friends that were in the park having a BBQ and asked them buy cigarettes for us. Since I live on the fourth floor we needed some kind of arrangement to get the stuff up to us. 70 rubber bands tied together and a plastic bag in the end (with a water bottle as a weight) was the perfect solution. Yeah maybe my neighbors think I’m crazy for hoisting a bag up and down four floors but hey, if you’re lazy you are.  

This week has consisted of school, work, more school and dinner. Nothing really to write about. Had a friend over for dinner last night, watched a movie I have tried to watch before but fell asleep half way through. I didn't make it through the movie this time either and I am determined to watch the ending tonight.

Got the result of my re exam and I couldn’t be happier when my teacher wrote that I passed! It’s like a weight lifted off my shoulders, now I can concentrate on my next course knowing that I have passed this one.

Who would have thought
That you could hurt me
The way you've done it?
So deliberate, so determined

I tried so hard to be attentive
To all you wanted
Always supportive, always patient
What did I do wrong?
I'm wondering for days and hours
It's clear, it isn't here where you belong

You don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry"
You said you would love me until you die
and as far as I know you're still alive, baby

Same exact exam as last time which I had mixed feelings about, hopefully I answered the questions better this time. Either way it feels good to be done with it and I can finally relax.
Spent the afternoon on a blanket in Jenny’s paddock talking about Breast Augmentation and Men. For some reason we decided to go horseback riding, and it was easy enough since the horse is right there and we could just jump up. We rode bareback with no shoes and wearing the hat from last weekend’s party, best feeling ever. Our girl’s night continued with a BBQ and wine.





Sunday it was time for a BBQ once again but this time at my parent’s house. After lots of food I looked like I was 5 months pregnant and felt like I was in a food coma. Jenny was nice enough to pick me up and drove me home. She stayed and we played Bingo lotto just like all the other senior citizens in Sweden do on Sundays. Pauline came over for a cup of coffee and after she left we went straight to bed.


I love Pauline’s one-piece, definitely have to get one!

The nerves continued all morning Friday. At 12 Jenny and I drove to House of Pain and got ready for our tattoo!! We have been talking about doing something meaningful for so long and finally had the perfect idea of what to do. 40 minutes later we both walked out of there with a puzzle piece on our wrists.

Just like a puzzle I’m not whole without her and we now “click” together.

The rest of the day and night I spent reading books trying to get ready for Saturday’s Exam.

Jenny heard something on TV last night that she sent to me: 
If you live without showing emotions you're not living, you only exist.
She now believes that she is getting smarter by watching TV all day long. I’ll just let her think that for a while.

24 hours left until our adventure starts and I’m both nervous and excited.

Woke up this morning at 10.30! This happens very rarely and I almost felt a little guilty that I slept so late. But again, I guess my body needed to catch up on some sleep.
Worked my first day at my new job yesterday and I think I’m really going to like it there. Everybody seemed so nice and the day flew by.

Today I studied with a friend and then planned to keep studying when I got home. Instead, I started digging deep in my closet looking for a bag that is filled with my bikinis (something I really need for Glekland). Didn’t find the bag but instead I realized that I have a lot of shoe boxes. Took them all out and to my surprise in some boxes there was more than one pair of shoes. I threw them all in a pile on the floor and after staring at the pile for a few minutes I decided that I had to line them all up and see what I have.  

Maybe I’m blind or maybe I’m just really confused but I don’t recall hearing or seeing that I had to register for re doing the exam on Saturday. Hopefully they can squeeze me in and I don’t have to wait until August to get a second chance.

Made plans to go away for a day or two, even if I’m not going very far and it’s not for a long time I am really looking forward to it.

...Yet another countdown is ticking in my head...

Doing laundry is something people usually hate. I can agree that most of the time it’s pretty boring. Especially when you live in an apartment and you first have to pack everything into huge IKEA bags, drag it down to the basement (my elevator doesn’t go all the way downstairs). Then you have to wash everything and then hang some stuff and tumble dry some, just this takes forever.
After all your cloths are clean and smell like fabric softener, you have to fold everything, pack it back in to the huge clumsy bags and carry it upstairs. Done yet? No way, when you are back upstairs you have to unpack everything and put it away. From beginning to end this takes hours. Yesterday it took us from 7am until 4pm.


Mangle anything you can think of, like leggings and socks


Send the whole alphabet to someone, one letter at a time


Organize your clothes by color or pattern


See who fits in the dryer


Dress like a ghost with the clean sheets

A day filled with laundry just became so much more fun.

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake,
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand

We took a nice long walk by the water Saturday morning, looking at the sailboats, the bridge and a few people fishing. You get hungry from walking and a pizza in the sun was exactly what our stomachs were asking for.

After a relaxing afternoon the stress hit and we had to prepare for the evenings party. Mowing the lawn, cleaning the house, putting up tables and make ourselves ready all within two hours was definitely a challenge. We made it and the guests started arriving ready to party. The party was a success and I think everybody had fun. The last guests left around 3am and that’s when we realized that we totally forgot to make a bonfire. Oh well, maybe next year.

Its' been a weekend filled with wine and laughter.
Spent Friday afternoon on a sunny balcony with a few friends. Wine was served but since I was the responsible one I stuck to Mer and could therefore drive home. Back at Jenny's house she taught me that after wine comes painting and she pulled out brushes and paint. Painted one wall in her bedroom and then we both realized that it wasn't as fun as we thought and we gave up.
Bored as could be we took her mom's car, which felt like driving a soapbox, and headed back to the sunny balcony. Lots of wine and karaoke at the local bar rounded up this night. We took the last bus home and then had a 40 minutes’ walk home from the bus station.

Side note: Jenny hasn’t been on a bus in years and walks on and says: Hi, how do I do this?