I keep trying to find my way
I’m feeling lost and confused. My eating habits are down to zero and I don’t know what the word sleeping means anymore. Watching the sun go up in the morning is something I do daily and it's starting to become a problem.
Not sure how but I managed to work all weekend. I’m definitely glad me and Jenny had a quiet midsummer at home without alcohol.
This week I am determined to change my lifestyle and get back on right track.
Got home from work last night and these stood outside my door
You're amazing just the way you are
Dyed Jenny’s hair yesterday, had to do it twice to get the color we wanted and still it looked yellow in her roots. Got a suggestion from a friend that using lemons should help bleaching hair and so we walked down to the supermarket. Tried both squeezing the juice in her hair, rubbing the lemon against her skull AND putting her upside down in a bowl of lemon juice to get the best effect. Unfortunately it’s still yellow and she just has to learn how to live with it.
Pizza for dinner and don’t ask me why, but I went to bed a little after 6am!
These foolish games are tearing me apart
Everything was starting to turn to the better and I'm smiling everyday.
Then one little text message and a phone call made me more mad than I’ve been in weeks. Maybe even months.
I really don’t know how to handle certain things but I know one thing, I hate when people lie to both me and themselves.
I think I've mistaken you for somebody else
I’m back in Sweden and I'm not really sure I feel more relaxed then before I left but it was definitely nice going away.
We left early Thursday morning and spent a few hours sitting at Espresso House at the airport because the plane was delayed. Once we got to Greece the heat hit us in the face and we threw our bags in the room, went down to the store for something to drink and then spent the rest of the day by the pool.
The week pretty much continued in the same pattern: Pool, bar, shopping, dinner, music and drinks on the balcony.
I’m not gonna say I came home with a great tan, but atleast I had a good time and to me that's all that matters. 
I love the feeling of being in love
I spent all day today packing, or trying atleast. I really hate packing and even tho it should be easy when all you technically need is a bathing suit, a few shirts and a pair of shorts, I managed to pack 12 pairs of shoes, 20 shirts and so on... Kim came over and helped me sort through my suitcase. Repacked three times before we were under the weight limit and the suitcase could be zipped up.
Instead of counting down the days it's now hours... can't wait..
You made my weekend worth smiling
Got invited to a party on Saturday night where we spent most of the evening outside in the beautiful weather.
Slept at Jenny’s house and once we woke up on Sunday we spent all day outside working on our tan. Bingolotto was on the schedule for Sunday night but this time without winning anything.
Bingo with Tila
Wonderful Memories
Today it’s seven years since I graduated high school! SEVEN years! I really can’t believe it’s been that long and I remember my graduation like it was yesterday. I’ve done so much since then but what I’m most proud of must be that I have, as of today, completed one year of college. So many times the thought has hit me to just give up and drop out. Never read a book again, never to write a paper and never do an exam, just getting a fulltime job doing whatever.
Every time those thoughts come to my head I’m happy I have wonderful friends and a wonderful ex husband that tells me I can do it and I will regret dropping out. I'm glad I listened to them all and stayed in school. As of now, all my books will be stored away in a place where I can’t see them and I will not waste one single thought on school for the next three months. But in September I'll be back, September is far far away.
Do I possibly try to make a speech?
Probably later in the evening when a little more alcohol has had time to be consumed
...this is what I call memories...
