Your soft hands makes me feel safe

Between working pretty much every day and spending every free moment at Christian's place I haven’t been home much lately. Today tho after work I took the time to do some laundry and clean my apartment. Never understood how it can get so dusty when you’re not even home?

Last night we went to the movies to see Transformers 3. Awesome movie and just like I said about Toy Story all three movies have been great. Thought about it last night and I don’t think I’ve been to the movies in Sweden in like 15 years. I forgot how small the theater is. Like that’s not all, you have to look for a specific seat. Of course someone else sits there and this makes people annoyed. It’s dark and there you stand trying to look at your ticket to make sure you’re in the right row not accusing someone of stealing your seat, once you’ve confirmed that you are in the right place everybody has to start moving around. Wouldn’t it just be easier if you could sit wherever you want? I was very happy that no one brought food inside but to get the big comfy seats that reclines back a bit is definitely something this country should invest in.
It was small and cozy tho and both the company and the movie was awesome.

Had a hard time falling asleep last night and the last time I looked at the clock it was 3:45am. My eyes closed shortly after and it felt like I had just closed them when the alarm rang at 5am and it was time to get up and head to work. Benadryl you’ll be my friend tonight!





Together we can do anything

How someone can be as wonderful as you is something I wonder every day. The way you held me while I was telling you the one thing that scares me the most meant the world to me. The way you listened to me and squeezed my hand when you knew it got hard for me. The fact that you didn’t judge me or look at me any differently is absolutely incomprehensible. A huge weight lifted off my shoulders and the feeling of relief is streaming through my body. Relief and tiredness.

The rain is pouring but the plan for the night was to BBQ and I’m sticking to it.


7 years ago


Don't underestimate me

After work on Friday I headed to Möllan with a few friends. The rain had stopped and we sat outside under the heating lamps enjoying some drinks. Wasn’t really a late night which was nice but still all of Saturday I was tired and my head was pounding. Laid on the couch watching Desperate Housewives pretty much all day before it was time for a new party, this time at Vicky and Stoffer’s house. My head was still killing me and I didn’t stay long. I did get to enjoy a delicious cake tho before I left.

Last night my parents came over for dinner. I felt really homely making dinner AND baking a cake. Drank some wine and while they were here they helped me put up some pictures on the walls, fixing my creaking bathroom door and hanging up a drapery in the hallway. Before the summer is over my plan is to get everything done for the apartment that’s on my “to do” list.


The awesome cake Vicky made


It's not that complicated, I'm just misunderstood

My haunting dreams are back and Benadryl have become my best friend! Saturday the new owners took over the sun tanning place and I was there working. Nothing to do really but a few regulars came and we had our Saturday coffee and updated each other on what’s going on in our lives. 

Yesterday it rained pretty much all day and instead of going to the beach, me and Linn decided to take a relaxing day at home watching a movie. After the movie we sat on her balcony with a few beers. It was so nice seeing her and I laughed until my stomach was hurting and the tears were falling down my cheeks. She also taught me a few awesome sentences in sign language which I’m so excited to use.


Love, you got a feeling that you can not hide

I can’t stop smiling when I think of you.
When I see you I get butterflies in my stomach.
My heart beats fast every time you kiss me.
I get tingles through my whole body every time you touch me.
You make me so happy and the summary is simple: I’m in love!


You are my special someone

Mike sent me the last papers yesterday. 25 pages to read with lots of words a barely understand. I spent all day today trying to find a place in Malmö that can do the notary. After I sign I will officially be divorced. Even tho I knew this day was coming and Mike and I are both on the same page about this whole thing it still, somewhere, somehow feels strange. The fact that we both moved on makes everything easier and I couldn’t be happier that we are still friends. He will always be a big part of my life and he will always have a special place in my heart.

There is so much for me over here, I get to spend as much time as I want with my family and friends and I’m getting the education I have been longing for for so long. And right now, my summer break is better than I expected. I’m smiling every day and it’s all because of one special person.


Me and my beautiful niece


I'm proud to be your aunt

I’m as happy as can be right now! My sister had a beautiful baby girl yesterday and of course I headed to the hospital as soon as I could and spent a few hours chatting and cuddling with my new niece. My sister looks great and everything went just perfect. The feeling of holding such a little baby is just amazing!

This week has been pretty stressful, stressful AND secretive. So much to do in just a few days. Woke up this morning at 6am had some coffee before Jenny went to work and now I’m getting myself ready so I can head out for last minute prepping. In a few hours I’m finally going to enjoy the weekend and all it has to offer.


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